What a year it’s been. Filled with highs and lows, blessings, and lessons. The lessons haven’t all been easy, and I’ve fought some of them tooth and nail..but God.
The year gave me some amazing discoveries, new challenges, new relationships, a few heartbreaks, some healing of old wounds, and closed some doors that had been opened far too long.
My children are growing up, they are beautiful, smart and talented. They push me to the brink and pull me right back up
with a smile. This year, they’ve shown me some things, helped me face difficulties, and truly solidified for me that parenting is the hardest job on the planet. With that being said, I’m honored to have been chosen. I love my children, they are a gift and I’m anxious, nervous, and excited to travel new beginnings with them. They are everything!
My relationship with God is greater than ever. My faith-walk has been tested, but God has sustained me, and kept me through some really trying times. I’ve fouled up, screwed up, fell down, and all things in between, but he still favors me. I can’t thank him enough for all he’s done for me. Some may proceed with caution, because I am a Jesus freak!!! Who cares though, man didn’t keep me, God did. I had to tell y’all about it too, I’ve had an amazing year in Christ.
This year a part of my family that I was sort of disconnected from become hugely connected. My grandfather started a family bible study for our family all around the world. We all get together on Saturday mornings via phone to pray, study the bible, life talk, laugh, cry, and learn about each other. This has been challenging for me in it self because one of the things about me that I’m breaking free of is my guarded self. I’m not use to sharing myself so freely, and basically putting my feelings on display. One of my cousins has always called me “secret squirrel” because I’m known for divulging nothing! Lol.. It’s quite ironic though, which brings me to one of the things I’m most proud of this year.
It’s like finding my voice in a world full of chaos. How does one who is so quiet and guarded with their self, share their self intimately, on the world wide web at that? I have to say it’s God. I feel lead to discuss or open up about various things. Trust me, I’m still guarded, and my circle is still small, but I’m evolving more and more each day. I have fallen in love with my blog. Well, love/hate.. Hahaha, I’ve told myself to throw in the towel because it seems people are sometimes not very receptive. I have to stick at though because I have received several emails, and inbox messages on Facebook from women telling me I’m an inspiration, that I have helped them, and that they love my blog. Me? An inspiration? This humbles me beyond what words can describe. That pushes me to quiet that voice in my head that tells me to give it up. I’m blogging for myself, for you all, and for the glory of God.
People who visit my blog should be able to tell, straight from the gate, that writing is what I love. I’ve learned some awesome things about myself simply from blogging. I’ve made new friends, and opened up a whole new world of dialect amongst women who I otherwise wouldn’t have been connected to. That is nothing short of amazing, and I plan on continuing this writing journey well into the next year and beyond.
At this point, my love life is still basically non-existent. When I tell people I’m single, they never believe me. I’ve heard it all, “your too pretty to be single”, “to great of a person to be single”, etc, etc. Well if brains and beauty were all it took, I would have been boo’d up by now. It’s just not the time. I’ve tried letting love find me and all that. I went searching for the perfect relationship, and found myself instead. I’ve been enjoying me too. That day will come for me though, and when it does, the universe might shake! I’ve seen this hashtag on twitter that says #dear-future-husband, and I see people writing all sorts of things. Well, I’ve never played along, but if I did, mines would simply say, #dearfuturehusband, I wish you hurry up! Lol..
P.S. Outfit post from yesterday that I fell asleep before posting, well atleast here are the pictures! Lol.. I’m terrible
(afterwork yesterday I got together with a friend who I had been missing. We kept scheduling, canceling outings and finally he said, no! This year will not pass and we don’t see each other. So we went to cheesecake factory, and what a great time I had. I love my friends!
Here’s what I was wearing:
Belt- Christmas gift from G-ma
Shoes- Missoni for Target
Rings, earrings, bracelets- H&M
Clutch- shoppers world
Happy New Year my Dears. I wish nothing but the best for you all. Be safe tonight and blessed. I’m going to be in church, and I’m excited about that, because I have come through a heck of a year. Pray for me guys, as I pray for all of you.
Peace and blessings,